Thanks Autumn for the words of hope and survival, they are appreciated. My life just doesn't seem to be following the "normal" (whatever that is) track of grief. I remember many, many years ago a very dear friend of mine husband had died 7 years prior to the question I asked.. which was "Diana... are you happy?" to which she replied "I haven't had a happy day since Wayne died." I remember thinking how terrible for her to feel like that. I felt so sorry for her. Now that's just how I feel. I have not had a happy day in 2+ years. She passed away in June and I didn't grieve for her because she was now happy. She believed, as I do, that I will see my husband someday. That day just can't come soon enough.
Peace,
Joyce