Hi waterdragon,
Welcome back! I'm so sorry to hear of the loneliness, that achy, empty feeling that seems to creep up on us and, at times take hold and with a vengeance. I know you miss you Mum terribly. It's never the same when someone we love so deeply is gone from our lives.
I can relate to your feeling alone in your grief. I have accepted that this is 'my grief' as no one else understands what it takes to just get through a day, sometimes. We are all in pain, and in that respect we are all the same, and then we are very different, as we all grieve very different.
So, please know that I understand and you have my heart.
((((((((waterdragon))))))))
Much love,
Terry