Widow @40,
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm 31, and my life was changed in an instant too. My husband was killed by a drunk driver. I repeat the days leading up to the accident, and that day all the time. The terror, the hope, and now the emptiness. It'll be three months this Saturday. I still can't believe it's real. I'm sorry we never got to have children, but I can only imagine how difficult it must be for you. We wake up, and in many ways that is the tortuous part. I was just adjusting to a knew name and the title "wife," now it's "widow." I often feel the injustice of life. One minute your life means one thing and then within seconds everything changes. It seems to get harder every day. If you ever need, just post. My thoughts are with you.
Jackie