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Rebecca

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I am selfish
« on: May 30, 2010, 07:03:02 AM »
and I know it.   After having a really nice two days with my daughter and her husband, I so want Jason back, to be a part of our family.  We went to buy flowers, set up the front of the house and I want him here.  My heart aches.  Yet, I know going to buy flowers, etc. was not his  thing so he would not have gone anyway.  It's just so lonely knowing he is gone.  No amount of begging will get him back. Laffing, talking, making like life use to be does not change the condition.  I have so much with my daughter and yet, I want more.  I am selfish.
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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #1 on: May 30, 2010, 10:28:15 AM »

                    ((((( Rebecca )))))

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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #2 on: May 30, 2010, 09:56:31 PM »
Wanting your son back makes you selfish? Missing him makes you selfish?

I cry almost every day for my son being gone. Today I cried so hard I had to pull off the highway because I could not see to drive. When I hear a mom talking rudely to her son, I confront her, I don't care where we are, I don't care if she gets mad at me. I have told many a mother that they are damned lucky to HAVE their son.

Many times after I laugh really hard about something, I cry because Dan would have laughed too, but he is dead.

I get MAD that other women have their sons.
I guess I'm selfish too.

With lots of love,
from one mom to another,
Annie(Dans mom)


ps:  What happened to your pictures? I miss them
Much love,
Annie (Dans mom)

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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #3 on: May 31, 2010, 08:32:16 AM »
Dear Rebecca,

I am selfish also! I want my son here by my side. We hurt so much because we love so much. Thinking of you and Jason today.

Love,
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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #4 on: May 31, 2010, 06:09:45 PM »
Maybe we all are. I want my son back too. I don't think it's selfish, it's human, it's being a parent who wants her child more than anything in the world.

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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #5 on: June 02, 2010, 08:17:15 PM »
Sweet Rebecca! Then I'm selfish too! I want my Michael back so badly it aches. I wish I had the answer so that we could enjoy our family and not feel the loss of our missing child so intensely that it hurts us so. You are not selfish, you are grieving your beautiful Jason.

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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #6 on: June 03, 2010, 12:50:45 PM »
Makes me selfish too then!! Even though I still have 2 beautiful daughters with me whom I Love with all my being..... my baby is gone!! I want her back!!!
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Re: I am selfish
« Reply #7 on: June 03, 2010, 05:21:50 PM »
I am selfish as well.....Can't detach ourselves from our kids.....It's ok to be selfish....Hugs to all here((()))....