Hi Penny,
I am glad that you went to work today, as bad as it seemed you broke the ice, and now when you go in it won't be as bad as this time. I know that is what happened to me, the first time back was very very hard, then it got a little easier, I had a day that was actually productive for me, I don't know if I told you but I haven't driven in years, as Johnny always did the driving, but I do have a license, well today I got up and said to Johnny OK we have to do this, I need your help, I took his hat with me that I sleep with and put it beside me and just went, I was very proud of myself, and I told Johnny, you have to help me and he did, I drove around for a few hours, and came home, I know that he was with me, as was god, so I feel a little better about myself today.
I went to a grief counseling meeting last night, it was OK, I am not sure if it is for me, but I will try, I will give it a chance, any help is welcomed.
Well I will be back later
Take Care
Karen