Hi Serenity,
I don't always come to this board anymore, but still check in here and there, especially at this time of year,Mother's Day. I'm sorry to you and anyone else here who is dealing with the passing of their mothers and who are not looking forward to this coming Sunday. I'm one that's "been there" as you say.
My mother passed away over 5 years ago now. I considered and still consider her to be one of the best friends that I ever have had. I would go to my mom, with my worries and problems, and she would always listen with a little smile on her face, as if to say, that everything would be okay. She was never too busy just to listen. To anyone who is struggling right now, I just want to say that it does get better. I still wish my mom was here. I think we all would want our loved ones to still be here.
It has become easier over time, to carry on each day, with thoughts of my mother and smile when in the beginning there were so many tears. Mother's Day is still one of those days, when I feel the loss of my mom, but I know that I can make it through the day, as will you. I am a mother too, but my own sense of Mother's Day always revolved around trying to make my mom feel special, because it was something I wanted to do just to show her how much I appreciated her.
I can smile now, about that first mother's day, where I was in so much denial, that the day was upon me, before I even realized that it was Mother's Day.
I hope that you are able to do something on Mother's Day that you enjoy doing,
that will somehow make it easier to make it through. My friend used to say to me, when my mom first died, that I would need to take baby steps. Just think ahead, whatever time you are able(one minute, one hour) and just try to make it through each little bit of time. It does get better. I loved my mom, so very much, and her loss was without a doubt, the most difficult thing I have ever faced. I just want others to know it's possible to make it through. I will always be thankful to this board and members for being there for me when I needed it.