So sorry for your loss, and for what you are going through with your burying your husbands ashes and his birthday, I really don't know where we get the strength to go on, but we do. I find it hard to understand why we have to go through so much pain and suffering, I know that you all miss your loved ones as much as I miss mine, I had his brother here today, and my son and when they left, I was depressed, It seems to happen everytime I have family over and they leave.
Well take care of yourself,
Karen