Hi Leo.
I'm right there with you. Lost my partner, soul mate and best friend four weeks ago. Lung cancer. Only nine months from diagnosis to when he died. And lost yet another friend just this morning. Again, cancer. It is a total shock, and you will do the best you can. Just be with it for a while. Do what works for you.
I am so sorry for your loss and understand your pain. They say it will get better, I'm doing better than I was four weeks ago, but I have no idea what normal is any more.
It does help to know others feel the same loss and understand what you are going thru. I'm still waiting for it to get better. I haven't figured out the sleep thing yet, I wake up after a couple hours too. I try to sleep when I feel like sleeping, just to try and catch up.
It took a week or so before I could write, but I write to Jake every day, and it seems to help. Keeping all the letters in a special file so I can go back and read them if I choose. Seems to be working for me.
Again, so very sorry you are having to go thru this.
Holly