Dena,
I, too, hope for a softer year. I wish one for you and everyone on this board.
As I approach the 3 year mark I find I keep my grief much closer to my heart. Others expect me to be "like I was". That will never be, but I try to find joy. My grief is so much more personal. I don't necessarily try to hide it. I don't know quite know how to explain it but the bond with my son is so ingrained in my heart. I FEEL him. No, it's not the same. He doesn't leave my soul.
Thinking of all of you.
Linda