Hi Pat,
Thanks for sharing how you're doing 10 years down the road. I agree that it does become different and sometimes it's nice for the newer Mom's and Dad's to hear this from others who are further down the road.
And, I understand exactly what you've said about looking forward to this Christmas because I am, too. And, there's nothing wrong with that. Some have shared with me over the years that they feel guilty for feeling good because they feel as if they are not honoring their child. We always honor our children....but...this is all a part of this very long and difficult journey in learning to live again and without our children.
I've just never felt guilt of any kind when having a good time and feeling peaceful, because I deserve it. Heaven knows, everyone on this Board deserves it.
These dates..Oh My, are so close together. My heart really goes out to you. And, I can also relate to wanting this feeling of having Christmas spirit to last without 'crashing' in the next couple of days, because I feel the same way. We never know when it's going to happen or how bad it's going to be and that's what's so scary.
But, I like you, do feel different this year. I really have missed my family and I do not want to just 'go through the motions' this Holiday Season. It's a genuine feeling and I am extremely grateful for it.
You must be so excited regarding your son, Tom's 'good news' and I know will make all the difference in your feelings staying uplifted. We're always happy for our kids, especially when they're happy. Thanks for sharing that, Pat!
Your post was a breath of fresh air and it's nice to be able to share a 'good feeling' once in a while. Heaven knows, I come on here from time to time, literally 'freaking out' because I'm in so much pain that I can't even see straight, so it's really awesome to be able to come on here and share about how 'good' I'm feeling with someone! I believe this is called "healing."
Thanks again, Pat and know I'll be thinking of you with your darling Angela's Birthday and Angel date fast approaching. And, please come back and let us know how your Christmas was and I'd love to hear about how the 'new gal' in Tom's life is going !!!
Much love to you and wishes for a peaceful Holiday Season with your family,
Terry