Hi Everyone,
It has been many months since I have posted. I do come to the site and read a few times a month though. I am sorry I have been away for so long. I want you all to know that I always think of the people on this board and the precious children that we all long for. My feelings of emptiness increase during this time of year and I just feel defeated. I have such a longing for my life "before the death of my son" that sometimes I can't see past everything else that is going on. I still wonder how this happened. I find myself constantly thinking about how things were before Jordan died. It has been two years now. I still can't grasp the finality of it all. I love him and miss him so much and I know everyone here on this board is experiencing terrible pain, so I didn't want to post a whining session. I just wanted everyone to know that I'm still here...I still think about all of you...I still think about our beautiful children....Adam, Doug, Patrick, Tammie, Landon, Wade, Josh, Jason, Donny, Philip. Keith, Taylor, and many more......blessings to you all....my heart is full of longing for these children to be with their families. Take care everyone....
Tammy