Thank you, Melissa, and no, I hadn't read it. I came on here and just started banging these keys and then went for a really long walk. It helped.
I'm sorry for your pain, too. So many birthday's/dates for you and missing your Charlie so much and his birthday coming up on the 16th...OH MY...I'm sending you the biggest hug.
The only positive change I've seen; (and I really shouldn't dismiss it so casually as the 'only' because it is a huge change)
When November comes, since it is the beginning of what more is to come. Michelle's Birthday, Michelle's Angel Date, Jeff's 7 year Angel Date, Jeff's Birthday and then those glorious holiday's in-between...and then there is the strength that I seem to always find; the peace that I seem to always feel and I believe this is from working very hard to heal my heart.
So, there has been a tremendous amount of healing even though the pain is deep and dark at times, the healing shines through much brighter.
I was a real "case" this morning but I am feeling peaceful tonight.
There's more to come, I know this, but I continue to hold on and tightly to what has always kept me grounded. And, I think that's all that any of us can do. We are all much stronger than we feel at times or we wouldn't still be here.
And, when it all seems to feel just unbearable, we come here where we don't have to explain any of our feelings and we can be understood.
Big Hugs and love to you and your kiddos!!!
Terry