Pepper ~ All too well, I remember my anger with God....I know how you feel. I am so sorry for your hurt
Eventully, it subsided, I hope it does with you...but seemed to be transferred to other aspects of my day to day life, the anger that my brother will not be here to share holidays, birthdays or day to day activites with me, his son or any other members of my family or his friends.
I hope that you feel at least a little better really soon.
Take care