Lins;
It will be 1 year for me since I lost Jim on November 21st; I can understand and feel what you are going through, even though it was your Dad. Thanksgiving is not what I look forward to this year, or Christmas and the music and the hustle bustle of people shopppig; guess I should not anticipate, but it's hard not to. And New Years, as that it was on NYE the 1st time we went out. The 1st year going through these Holidays was a fog, and I have heard the 2nd year can be worse; I am tending to believe it, as now the fog has lifted and reality really sets in.
The hurt, pain, feeling lost, alone, missing his touch, hugs, kisses, snuggling, his voice, his phone calls, seeing his face, that smile - just everything.
I am having anxiety about it already; both our bd's are this month, so have to get past those, too. We were to be married one day this year, and didn't have an exact one picked out, but probably would have been this month, as he wanted to get married between our bd dates.
I pray you can get through this, too - will be thinking of you.
((( hugs )))
Kay