Hi Rebecca,
I have left for sometime, I read occassionally.
I feel after 13 years I was not grieiving, I was missing my boys. I am doing ok on my own which is good, it shows the grief does ease or leave you, I accepted the boys are gone and there is nothing I can change, only myself.
I do beleive we don't grieve forever and we do live again. I feel this in myself today.
I have been here for years to heal and to give to others what was given to me. I will be forever grateful to Tom, Dena and all those who stayed with me in my darkest times. The loss of a child is the worst tragedy a parent can live through. There is no quick fix to heal, and we all heal in our own ways. Having support and understanding with those that have lost a child I found was the only way I could heal.
I cherish the memories, the photos, the signs, anything and everything that brings me closer to my boys. The tears fall when they fall, I don't fight it, its my time to be with my son/boys. My Chaddar time as I have said for many years.
Many issues at this board took many away, to be honest there was a problem for me with a few awhile ago. I didn't feel safe and had fear it would carry over to this board. If I haven't talked to you about a isue please don't feel you have caused any harmwith me. I felt it was time for me to step back and give others time to reach out to others also, this is very healing.
I think of you at this board often and read occassionally, I see some oldies have popped back in and was nice to see them back.
I will continue popping in and thinking of you and our kids. Your all such a big part of my past and life today.
For all the new parents that have lost a child, your at a good place for support, I hope you find healing as I did here.
Love Deb