you wait, you wait, you wait... and the it comes. My daughter and SIL are leaving Boston for good. For them I am having a big party for the fourth. I am nervous. I have always been an easy going, well, maybe not sooooooooooo easy going hostess but I always knew that Jason would stop by because he lived close. Now it is the opposite. Maryn is here and Jason never will. I get this sorta sick feeling in my stomach...Yesterday I just cried and as I type this, I am tearing up and will cry soon. The pain will never go away....and I will never know why... but it happened and there is nothing I can do, nothing... except think of and loving in my heart.
Rebecca Jason's Mom