I can only imagine the missing at 5 years. It seems so many here have or are approaching this particular marker. I'm so sorry, Brenda, that you can't hold her in your arms. But the flowers will symbolize the love you hold for her now and always and she knows. Your heart holds her heart, forever.
Just the other night, for the first time in the 22 months I have been without Keith, I allowed my thoughts to wander to the day the police stood in my living room, telling us what was impossible to hear, impossible to comprehend. I looked at the spot where they stood and saw myself, sitting, listening as the world that I knew stopped. That's as far as I could let myself think before banishing it and blocking it.
I'm sorry for your pain and sorrow and hope more peaceful memories will ease back into your life as the days beyond such an anniversary pass.
Wendy, Keith's mom