Went to my sister's gravesite this weekend, and it is hard to believe she has been gone a month already! I still cannot bring myself to watch the DVD I received from her hospice nurses - with pictures of her life and some really sad songs. I feel guilty for having fun over the weekend at cookouts, and out on the Lake. Why did she have to get that horrible disease? Why not someone else - some horribly mean person, not my easy going, personable, loving, and caring sister!!!
For two weeks after she died, there was so much support: cards and flowers and gifts and words of sympathy. Then it all suddenly stopped, and everyone goes back to their own lives. Does that mean that I am supposed to go back to my normal routine, and stop grieving?
Just wanted to thank all of you for this very helpful forum, and to offer my thoughts as Memorial Day weekend comes to a close ......