I'm Aislin and my older brother Chris died April 2006. I know it's been almost 3 years but i am so lost and i don't know what to do.
He was 21 and i was 16.
I miss him so much, he was the best person I have ever know and will ever know. We never got along, like most siblings, but he made me who I am today and I miss him so so much. For those 3 years i've been feeling so many things. Anger, because I'm left alone in this shitty little world by myself. Saddness because he didn't deserve it, and happiness because I know he is in a better place. I wish all the time it was me instead of him, because he would of made the most out of life, while I don't. It pains me so much that I have to go through life without him by my side.
I don't know what to do... I don't know what will happend with me without him being there. It's just so unfair... Any advice? Anyone who has gone through the same thing? How did you go on?
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