Flamingo;
How wonderful to have met someone on a walk. I was so bitter at God for taking Jim from me, that I didn't or would not see when he did put people or something in my path. I still have days asking WHY, God? I still have a hard time with that, but I am getting better; I can feel that and finally say that. On Thursday, I was feeling really anxious and jumpy knowing 4 months was coming on Saturday (today) and took my dog, a cocker spaniel, for a walk. My, what wonders it did for me to get out and breath some fresh air. I too, am afraid of losing my dog now; it's just him and me. I am afraid of losing another person I Love; it's so scary now.
I understand about getting angry/mad at people who complain about pain, or more so getting mad at their spouse or significant other; I just say please don't say/do that, be happy you have them here, and you can be with them; you never know what tomorrow will bring. Get some odd looks and some say whatever. I would like to say that I would glady trade places and have Jim back with me.
Teri;
Hhow sad to lose a friendship of 20 years, but I can understand that happening; until it happens to her, she won't know the pain. I can already feel it coming, the loss of friends Jim and I had, even the short 4 years we had together, because I am now ME not WE. I can tell the friends of mine, who will listen and those that are thinking, oh no, she will want to talk about Jim; it hurts, but right now, I need to talk about Jim, I need to have those in my life who will listen and be there for me; that may sound selfish, but it's all I have. Will have to try your sister's advice, too - thanks for sharing that.
I miss Jim so much; today it is 4 months and it's hurting alot ...................
Strength and peace to get through another minute, hour, day ...
Jap Jr's - Kay