Michelle:
Wish I could load a picture of Laurence but I have no clue how to do it. If I could I would load the one where he is competing in a powerlifting meet in November of 2007; he had regained his strength, weight was back to 250 and cancer free for 14 months; really never thought it would come back.
When the man did something he did it with intensity and passion; sure wish I had some of his passion right now.
Now when I see the programs about watching your health, eating right, exercise, I am a little conflicted as I know someone who did exactly that, but somehow ended up with damn brain tumors??
My kids have lost alot of people in their young lives, so I know that even if I only have them for 2 weeks out of the month (X & I have shared custody), I know they need their mom functioning and need to see some hope on my face. Yes, I would sure like to lay it down and not have to deal with this agony, but I keep telling myself I have to keep going for them.
I'm like you right now; I read grief books; read my bible; read scripturally based books; go to this site; calms me down, but cannot focus on anything else. My business that I loved has no motivation for me now.
Other than on this site, there are not many that really understand.
My heart goes out to you and everyone else going through this.
Carrie