I am so sorry for your loss. I feel for anyone that has experienced losing someone they love.
I just recently lost my sister and best friend, on January 25, 2009 my sister Verna (47 yrs old) fell down the stairs as she was walking up the stairs of her basement. She was rushed to the hospital and we were told that she needed surgery immediately if not she would die. I appreciate the doctors trying to help her, but as far as her recovering it was pretty obvious that she would not.
The Doctor always made it pretty clear that her recovery was almost impossible, so after 9 days in the SICU
(surgery intensive care unit) my sister Verna was gone. there was no more waiting to see if she would recover.
I am still in shock that she is no longer with me, my sister, friend and mother; she was all to me.
I have 8 yr old twins (boy and girl) and they were very close to her, they use to call her Tia Verna. When ever I went out of town on business I would call her. she would then come to my house and spend time with them, my daughter would always tell me, I miss you mom but I'm glad Tia is here because she takes care of us like a mother. They miss her tremendously, I am in so much pain, and to add to that pain is to hear my kids cry every other night as they express how much they miss her.
That is something I had never experienced. I am sure that with time I will feel better, but in the mean time I feel like a part of me has died. Yes, I go through my daily routines, but i constantly want to break out and cry, even when I'm working I feel so empty inside. I have laughed, gone to a play, gone out to dinner done my usual things they don't feel as great as they used to.
When my sister fell I was not there, I got a phone call that she fell and that she needed to go to the hospital, that was it.
My husband and I got in the car to the hospital, instantly I started to feel something horrible inside.
I proceeded to cry, my husband could not understand why I was crying. I told him that I had a terrible feeling that this was going to be really bad. Again he said stop thinking like that she probably just hurt her ankle or something. But I knew that it was not that, my entire body was telling me different.
Isn't it amazing how, things like that happen I am not a negative person I would never feel that other wise. I have learned something about myself, that I was able to listen to my gut feelings. Now I know what they were talking about. I did not understand it, but unfortunately do now.
I do believe that my sister is fine, she was an angel here on earth, and she will continue being an angel.
God Bless