Karen Paul, I just finished reading the article. It spoke to me directly. #1: it said how devestating it is for parents to lose a child in the teen or early 20's, not that any time of course is better than another, it's just for me, Adam was 24. #2: it talks about the guilt and the if only's, I feel like I am stuck there and #3: one person talked about their passion for gardening, that has become my meditation. I loved gardening before now I agree, it is a passion. Thanks for the link!