Hi guys, I know I don't post or reply much for that matter, but I would like your opinion on how to handle something. To refresh your memory, I lost my only brother and sister to a car accident, in what will be 10 years this november 16th.
Anyways, my mom and I got into a bit of an argument the other day, not sure why she was so upset, she just kinda flipped out. I let her go, thinking she would cool off. Not quite so, I woke the next morning to what I would consider a nasty email, personally attacking me and "how I am". I called her, and I admit, I was ready for a fight. Well, things continued to become heated, her telling me how disrespectful and unappreciative I am, and how i treat her as if she isn't good enough. I never said one bad thing about her. I not sure where she is going with all of this.
Anyways, here is what I need help on. During our conversation I confronted her on email she circulated a while back. (One of those forwards, with all kinds of questions about yourself.) Well one question was where would you would rather be right now....and her answer was "heaven." I asked her about this and I told her that it makes me feel like I'm not good enough for her, that she would rather be with her two deceased children in heaven, then here on earth with her only living child left. Her reply......."you don't know what its like.... there isn't anything left here to live for." I get it, losing a child, let alone two, has to be the hardes thing imaginable. But I am still here. So I was right....I'm not good enough....why stick around for me? I don't get it. I feel so rejected. I wanted her to tell me she didn't mean it, or that she was just having a bad day when she sent the email, but no, she confirmed what I felt.
Now I'm at a loss as to what to do, how to heal. She left me a voicemail and said she wants to talk more about it, but I'm not so sure I want to. I don't want to talk to her right now. What are your thoughts?