Thank you for all the support and encouragement from my first letter to death. I have written another and I hope you will like this one as well.
This one is dedicated to our/my friend Donna B. She has shown me that there is life, and it is to be lived to the fullest, in spite the adversities that life throws at us. She has shown me by example, not just words.
Today I celebrate her life! Donna...you are my inspiration. You are woman, and we hear your roar!
Dear Life
How I miss you old friend.
You are faithful to be here for me whether I want you, or not.
Since death visited, it seems as if I lost all desire for you.
There doesn’t seem a reason to feel joyful or content.
I am blinded by my pain, and can not see beyond that right now.
Life, you had once given me an abundance that I was not deserving of.
But in this quiet time of death, oh how I struggle to remain with you.
There are even moments that I pray you would give up on me.
Where there was love and happiness, why does it seem like anger took root?
I use to have such hope in you, but now that is clouded with despair.
I have brief glimpses of my old you, and in those moments I want you back.
But then the fog rolls in, when I remember what once was, and is not any more.
Life, I know you are still here for me, even waiting for me patiently.
I can hear you beckoning me to come back to you, and I want to answer your call.
Remind me through your beauty of this world that there is so much left to see and do.
I want so desperately to taste your goodness and fullness once again.
I know you are teaching me a great lesson on humility.
It is through my broken heart that I am now able to see another’s pain.
I was so ridged, and am learning that I must bend or else I will break.
I thought I was invincible, but now I see just how fragile you have made me.
I thank you for showing me that you do not measure our days by years, hours or minutes, but in our breaths and heartbeats.
Like a mangled body trying to walk again, I struggle to move on.
I try to place one foot in front of the other with great difficulty and stubbornness.
Before large strides were taken carelessly, now I am struggling to look ahead.
With each step forward, I pray it will be a step farther away from the pain I am enduring.
But I will take that step.
I have to take that step.
And I will celebrate victory in that moment as it is a new milestone.