Sadly I can not get past somethings that have happened here. Words that have literally set me back into a anger that I carried for years with the boy that killed my boys. Anger that someone could be so cruel and uncaring to others which led to their deaths. A post recently set me into anger and hurt, I can't get past that I feel it was unnacceptable and disrepectful to my family, my sons, myself, and many parents and children here. When asked if it would be deleted the reply was no. I have to accept this because I am keeping in mind we all have lost a child and grief does do many things to us all even though I will never understand why it is so hard to be kind to others through our own pain.
For now I am in need of a break, need to take care of me and not allow what has happened to set me back, Chaddar keeps reminding me by his "you've come along way momsie", and I have, thanks to so many of you that stayed with me through the hardest time of my grief and to today. Up to this week my holidays were looking pretty good after 10 years I can't allow anything to set me back and change that. I am aware I have been hit by some horrible memories of the past and aware I am not at a safe place right now so time for a change and taking a break.
Keeping you all in my heart this holiday season,
Love
Deb