Its been almost 10 years since my grandpa and cousin died. I also have lost a unborn child during that time. I have never grieved my loss, sure I have cried but I never allowed myself to feel it, espeically my baby. How do I begin to grieve after such a long period of time. I always think about going up to the cemetary and I can never bring myself to it- I have issues with crying and I don't want people to see me. I just hurt so much but I don't know what to do.