MamaAnn~
I saw your SOS as well...and looked and you were "off-line" already.
I said a prayer for you, that is all I feel I can do as the depths of a mothers anguish is far too deep, no human words can really console.
I pray that angels surround you and cover you with their wings, to shelter you from some of the hardness the world for a time ...and allow you to have peace from God, to rest and mourn...and cry.....
I am so sorry you have to go through this. You might feel alone at times, but please know, you are not...you have us here...and God, who weeps for you as well because He knows all to well about having a Son die.