I stop by here, a few times to read. Unfortunately, I am now, with my limited time, concentrating more on reading and learning about my newly diagnoses diabetes. But, this does not ever stop me from thinking about my Jason, missing and loving him, talking about him. Just yesterday, my neighbor had her three grandchildren riding their bikes around the tree in our cul de sac. I am not fond of her period so when the children were riding around it made me mad. Not at the kids because it is safe but because the father of the children peed on Jason when he was about 10 and the mother called my Jason a liar when he told. He ran in and washed immediately so I knew something was wrong and now he is enjoying his children, etc. and my Jason is gone. Do I sound like sour grapes, u bet. I am so sour and angry. This should be our time. I should not be angry about the kids, I should not be.... More importantly, my Jason should be here... Why isn't he... I am so angry and missing him so very much. So, I think I better do something constructive instead of feeling so very sorry for myself. I hope you are all well and enjoying whateve it is we who have lost our children can enjoy.
Rebecca Jason's Mom