Dear Lori,
My heart goes out to you, I just hate that you are having to go through so much pain, I am glad you found us, and know, we are here for you.
My Kyle died May 02, of this year, he was my only child, and everyday is a struggle, just like it is for everyone else here on this board and others that do not have this sort of support system.
I know there are other parents on this board who lost their precious children to suicide and hopefully they will respond to you and help you through this horrific journey.
Although the bottom line is that no matter what happen to cause our kids to pass away, we will always ask the questions why? Kyle was killed in a two motorcycle accident, one of his best friends was killed instantly, Kyle hung on for 11 days in the Elvis Presley trauma center in Memphis until he passed away the day before my birthday.
He had learning disabilities and although was never diagnosed, he was border line depressed in my eyes. At times he would say that he was going to kill himself, and even though kids may say that when they are mad, I feared that he actually wasn't as happy as he pretended to be.
I feel that was the reason he took so many risks in his life, a dare devil, and the need for speed in a car or on his bike and four wheeler. I just don't know, and I probably will never know until I see him again.
Hang on tight...and try to think positive the best way you can. We are here and walk beside you...Many hugs and understanding...Valerie (Kyle's Mom)