Marianne,
One thing that I will have to say that has helped me immensely through this terrible journey I've had to travel alone is looking at the pictures, posts and comments on my son's website. It makes me cry each time I go to it, I cry because I miss him so much but it also makes me feel like he will never, ever leave me, no matter what. I still refer to him sometimes in the present. My sister commented to me that she likes that. My Landon will always be with me, I will see him again, I will hold him again, and I know that he is in God's loving arms, he has to be because he was and IS such a wonderful, special little angel to all of us! My soon-to-be ex-husband commented soon after we lost my Landon that I needed to stop looking at his pictures so much, I asked him 'Why?" He said because it made me cry. Yes, it makes me cry but I will never stop looking at his smiling face, he is and will always be a member of our family. I was hurt when he told me to stop looking at his pictures, but he has never been much of an understanding, compassionate person to begin with.
If you want me to help you set something up for your Alek, I would LOVE to! Just let me know, k?
Landon's Mom forever,
Shelly