Hi
Hope you all had a great christmas and new year!
Tomorrow is my brother chris's angel day, i can't believe a year has gone by so quick,I am still so very sad and miss him so much but have come to turms with his death and i am on the path of healing.
We all had abit of a knock back on saturday 5th january, My dad has 5 children from his 1st marrage who i see but i am not as close to them as i am my mums 3 children from her 1st marrage who my dad adopted, i am the youngs out of 9 children.
My brother Denis got admitted to hospital on friday with pneumonia he bucked up over night, on saturday morning my dad got a call to say he had take a turn for the worse, my dad went straight to the hospital by the time my dad got there he had died he was only 49.It was all so sudden we never thought this would happen.
I feel bad as i feel like i should be feeling more then i do about his death, after chris's death i found it so hard to cope with every day life but i was so close to him.
It is all so very sad but i don't think i could cope at all if it had hit me like when chris died.
I am feeling the pain more for my dad as he has lost two sons in less then a yr n both of them being under 50, chris 44 and denis 49, my dad is 80 and he keeps saying it should have been him and not them and that is very upsetting.
Denis has for children that are sorting all his affairs so that takes the presuure off of my dad.
We were all hoping this yr was gonna be better then last yr as we had all lost chris, are rock.
Life just seems so unfair
Thanks for listening
take care Hugs to all Helen