Hello girls, I see from reading the posts your Holiday feelings were spread thin like mine. I too am close to all of you through facts, married 42 yrs, he died suddenly last April 9th , would have turned 65 last Nov. retirement just around the corner. Our 43 Anniv will be in March.
I chose to leave the state and spend a week in California and a week in Washington state, with my twin sons whom turned 40 the 29th. We got through it. There were very few tears, but a lot of strained emotions, and confused feelings. We made it through it but hes still a big part of our lives and always will.
The New Year will be better, because the wound is getting a tiny bit smaller. I will deal with each day as it comes and now worry about things I cannot change.
The New Year to all of you. AMI