hi
I went to see my brother before the funeral at the funeral parlour to say my good byes as he died so suddenly, I found it a great help. The coffin was closed at the funeral.
It was very hard and tears stremed down my checks the whole time.He looked so at peace, he looked like he was asleep i held his hand and gave him a kiss goodbye on his forehead and i placed a white orchid flower on his chest.
I went with my mum, dad and my auntie, we asked for some things to be put in with him, he had a swimming towel and trunks, a silver cross, a note book and pencil and some money and i alse asked for a letter from me to be put in with him this is what i wrote
Chris i will miss you so much,
i can't believe that my big wonderfull chris has gone.
i will never forget all the happy times i had with you,
from play fighting, rides on the motor bike, my first bike that you fixed and painted for me and called it speedy, along with all happy times we had,
i loved spending time wiith you.
we have put a St christopher in with you as this will always be you and me.
I love you
You are and always will be in my heart and thoughts
Take care
All my love forever Helen xx
My sister didn't want to see him again he as she had seen him at the hospital after they had spent 45 minuites trying to save him.
I am so glad i went to see him i have had a hard time dealing with his death any way but i think i would be worse than i am if i hadn't got that chance to say good bye.
sorry i have gone on abit it felt good to talk about it though, another step forward on my healing path
Thanks for listening take care
love Helen