I love my brother too. He passed unexpectedly in May at the age of 50. They still have not finalized his death certificate. Had some sort of rare genetic disease. My brother was my best friend. We were both artists and, of course, no one understood us. My brother was a child prodigy in pen and inks and a studio musician among other gifts. Was a vision of health...very handsome, youthful, athlethic. None of the doctors would sign his death certificate because they said he should not have passed.
This reminded me of a time, perhaps 25 years ago when we had a meeting with the Dalai Lama who remarked that my brother had several "gifts" he went on to say that in Tibet/India they "lower" the energy of people like him when they are children so they do not "burn through" this life. They teach the children how to use their energy or gifts, then gradually increase them. He remarked that my brother somehow did the same thing naturally by using his many gifts as outlets. He also spoke of a tendency of these people...that when they are finished with their lifes work they leave. Die suddenly...an accident, heart failure, etc. He was very matter of fact and on a philosophical level I think that's what happened to my brother.
On a personal level, I miss the very human heart connection that we had; however, I must admit I still feel our connection. I think I always will.
I have spent the past 7 months "being there" for my parents. As a parent myself I just cannot wrap my head around this type of loss, I can only imagine...
I'm now at the point where I'm actively trying to deal with my own grief. My way is to embrace it. I stumbled upon this site tonight and wanted to share my thoughts.
Blessings All