Hi,
Tomorrow, November 2nd, will be the third anniversary of my mother's passing. Three years ago, tomorrow morning, I got a call from my brother saying that the doctors had found a blockage in my mother's bowels, and she would possibly have to wear a colostomy bag for the rest of her life. An hour later, my sister called saying that our mother was not expected to live through the day as the doctors had found gangrene in mom's bowels and there was nothing that could be done.
The rest of the day was a nightmare. By 11:20 that night, my mother had passed away and life changed for all of us that loved her so much.
I am sitting here tonight, with a "movie" of that last night playing through my head. If I could have only changed the outcome, it would have been wonderful.
I did learn that I could live through this, which is something I would never have thought 3 years ago, when she first died. On the other hand, losing someone that I loved with all my heart, has been incredibly difficult in that I know that there will never be a day that I wouldn't miss my mom. I will always have the weight of sadness that I wish I had just one more day with her.
I want to thank all of you that have been so caring and compassionate with your words, these last three years. I will never forget that.