Hi,
I posted to you earlier about my loosing my dad & brother BOTH in motorcycle accidents 5 years apart! My brother & I were very close; he ws 7 years older than me & we have a sister who is 1 yr younger than my brother so 6 years older than me! My sister & I weren't as close as me & my brother. He was my BIG Brother, my protector. No one messed with Keith's little sis! I felt safe. He was a tough guy, people either loved him or hated him, there was no in between! He was my idol growing up.
He also left behind 2 daughters who were 8 and 12 at the time of his death. His son who was born just 3 weeks after he died & he's 6 now! We have a very good relationship with his wife. She has not remarried & keeps us in tune with the kids' activities so we can attend their functions. If it weren't for that, we would have no connection to him! It's so sad to take his son & my young kids to the cemetaries to visit their a Father, a Uncle & a Grandpa!
When my dad was killed last year due to a motorcycle accident, all the feelings of this came back again. Our first family get together we all just sat there. Where's my dad I thought? Where's my brother? It's too quiet here! Life works in strange ways. I have got to give up on trying to figure out WHY and how did this happen to us 2 times???
We have to forget the unanswerable questions for now! You are still very fresh in the grief stage with it only being a month! I can tell you the pain does lessen over time but it will never go away. Remember the fun memories & come here often to vent & read other stories. Some days when I'm at my worst, I will come here & yes I do find something funny occasionally that will hide my sadness just for the time.....but it's better than never!
Take care
Kelly