Christiana, it looks as if you have recieved a number of responses. However, I too wish to reach out and let you know that I am praying for you and your family. I too, lost my father to emphysema and lung cancer back in 2005 and my whole world shattered. You see, I was Daddy's girl and the bond I had with him was so strong, I have no words to express it. I felt that sense of fogginess you mentioned, and it seemed as if God was oblivious to my situation. I sat for days after returning back to North Carolina (he lived in Kansas) after the funeral and I was lost. I sat ont he couch seeking comfort in the Bible, but the tears seemed to keep on coming and the pain was still fresh with each passing day. Please believe me when I say that you WILL begin to heal- although the process is slow. May I take a minute to sahre a testimony? Upon hearing of my father's death, I rushed to the airport in Myrtle Beach, SC to get the earlieset flight out to Kansas. The bereavement rate was a whopping $800.00 (which I did not have). As I began to cry and explain my situation, some minutes passed when the flight representative gave me a new price of $54.00. Thinking that the airlines had cut me some kind of deal, the representative kindly told me that a man who was in line with me gave me all of his frequent flyer miles! So even though I thought God didn't care about my pain (and I was angry with God to some extent) He was always on the scene to take care of me. Later, I "saw my father-in the spirit"- I think looking very young and vibrant. He was healthy and looked to be around in his late 30's or early 40's. He said that when I got to Heaven, I would know him and he would know me and he was happy, content, and smiling. I could even hear his heart beat while hugging him. I woke up crying. It was so very real and it definitley was not a dream. My uncle later told me that sometimes, God will give us a glimspe of events like these to encourage us. You be encouraged. I know that you deeply loved your father. Bishop TD Jakes once said that death cannot kill a love as great as ours and human hands cannot bury it. God loves you, and you and your father will be reunited soon one day. Until we meet in Heaven-Pam