Sorry for the loss of your brother, but I'm glad you found this site. It has been a great source of comfort, understanding, and compassion for me. While there may not always be alot of activity here, someone usually responds within a day or two. I know I try to. Sometimes it just helps coming here and writing whatever it is I am feeling at that time....a great way to vent.
I too had a wonderful relationship with my brother. He was older, so I looked up to him. My sister was younger, and while we didn't have the same kind of relationship, we were still close. I think the big brother syndrome....being the protector with a big heart......is what makes those bonds more special. Take Care