To all my friends,
It has been a difficult couple months for me. I just haven't been myself and the loss of Chrisitan has hit me harder than I guess I was prepared for. This would have been his graduation from high school year and everyone has been having parties, seeing kids his age all excited about graduating and what they will be doing. My daughter (some know she is not my real daughter, but in heart) was asked to leave the house in November because of behavior. She wouldn't talk to me for months until about Mother's day, she called and wanted to go out to lunch. She seems to be trying to make amends.
Amy (my daughter) asked me to come to graduation. She and Christian were in the same class. I couldn't say know, but stuffed all my feelings in. I was so angry that they didn't even mention Christian's name. Like he was never in that class or never existed. If infuriates me to know end. I work, go home, work go home, and so on. Nothing seems to make me happy and it is a struggle every day to get out of bed.
Anyway, I wanted to come on line and tell all of you that I have "our" children's calendar in my office and I am always looking at it and seeing all of the angel and birthdays, It's amazing how close I feel to all the kids.
So blessings to all of you and I hope I will be more able to be on line,