Thanks Jazzgirl and Sadeyes! I did sleep better that night after writing things down. I think it was just an emotional weekend having him here. Don't get me wrong, I love the little guy to pieces. But sometimes its just pure saddness knowing he will never know his father and that just seems so unfair. Anyhow, your words of understanding, helped me realize that what I was feeling was normal. I said it myself. I was happy yet sad at the same time. Hope you two are doing well.
Sad eyes, I know I've been away for a while, but I was never really gone. I come read almost daily. I just don't have the energy to post all the time. I know I am hard on myself, but somedays, I just tell myself...... "Come on, its been almost nine years, you should have something positive to say, or be able to help someone else......not just post your own boo hoo's". I hate to sound so negative all the time.
So I just don't post. I'm gonna have to try and make that my goal. Try and come here and post my good days.
Later, Take Care
Middle sis