Hi Tracy: I know that, as much as you wish your sister could be there for her daughter and all those special events, she is at peace knowing that YOU are there, and taking good care of her baby girl. My daughter is 18 so I can really relate to all the changes and future events. I know that you all miss your sister, brother-in-law and nephew. I can only imagine how Sam's heart breaks. She lost so many loved ones. It sounds like you are just doing a great job with carrying on for your sister and family. How blessed they are to have you in their lives. When you were talking about the wedding gown and all, I thought of Julia Roberts in "Stepmom". Have you seen that movie? A real tearjerker that you could surely relate to. I wish you brighter days ahead, and I just want to tell you that you are courageous and strong for taking on all that you have, and you are doing a beautiful job! Hugs-Lonnie