JParks - I'm so so sorry to hear about your sweet brother and now your girlfriend.. two major losses in such a short time frame is just too much to bear.. there are not enough words to express the sadness.. I do hope you know that you are not alone and you can always come here..
It has been almost 4 years since my nephew Chris was killed at the age of 16 by a hit and run driver and i can safely say that grief is a long road.. it takes a toll on every aspect of your life.. you are not going crazy, you are grieving... give yourself time and just breathe.. one moment, one day at a time.. sometimes that is all we can do..
there's a song I'd like to share with you - which offers me some comfort on occasion -
I Believe
by Diamond Rio
Album: Completely
Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it’s like you haven’t been gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart I’m sure we’re closer than we ever were
I don’t have to hear or see, I’ve got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe
Chorus
That when you die your life goes on
It doesn’t end here when you’re gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I’m right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe
Forever, you’re a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And I’ll hold you even longer if I can
The people who don’t see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
‘Cause I believe
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe
I believe in you.. sending you big hugs,
Karen, proud aunt of Christopher