You know I keep reading his obituary over and over. I read his ulogy over and over, as if I don't know the facts about his life, or how he lived his life. Sometimes I am caught up in unbelievable pain and sometimes a smile comes to my face remembering something quirky or funny about him.
When I watch shows that we use to watch together sometimes I remember the things he said about the show and I cry, cry hard because it hurts to know I will never hear his voice again.
Then other times I will remember something funny he said about the show, or I'll think about what he would have said about what is happening in the show at the moment, and I will laugh out loud, alone, because I know exactly what he would have said.
I'm not sure either why we do some of the things we do, but we do.
We are all in this together! If you need to talk, I am here