HI First of all I got sick on valentines day ,the day Patrick went to the ER. I was sick for a week. On his angel date I was reliving every thing. I did go to the cemetary and have been crying for days. When I do the snow I cry, yelling for Patrick because he always did it. I feel worse even tho a year has past.I keep telling myself why did this happen leaving me alone. It is bad enough without my husband in a nursing home for 2 years. At least I had Patrick at home.He was to young to die at 35.Sometimes I feel there is nothing left for me. If it wasn't for my dogs I don't know what I would do.Tommorow won't be any better like the song ANYWAY.LOVE AND HUGS MARIE THANKS for listening