John - thinking of you and your wife on this very sad day... Danielle Marie's first angel date. There are not enough words to express the sorrow felt for you and all of us here. I remember seeing this poem a couple of years ago and it really expressed what I think we feel at some points on this journey.. to others so much time has gone by and yet to us it is sometimes that very first day... that changed our lives forever... holding you in my heart today and your sweet Daniell Marie.. and hoping you feel her close by you both... where I know she is...
I Lost My Child Today
I lost my child today
People came to weep and cry
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed
They struggled to find words to say
To try and make the pain go away
I walked the floor in disbelief
I lost my child today.
I lost my child last month
Most of the people went away
Some still call and some still stay
I wait to wake up from this dream
This can't be real, I want to scream
Yet everything is locked inside
God, help me, I want to die
I lost my child last month.
I lost my child last year
Now people who had came, have gone
I sit and struggle all day long
To bear the pain so deep inside
And now my friends just question Why?
Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song
Good heavens, it has been so long
I lost my child last year.
Time has not moved on for me
The numbness it has disappeared
My eyes have now cried many tears
I see the look upon your face
"She must move on and leave this place"
Yet I am trapped right here in time
The songs the same, as is the rhyme
I lost my child.........Today
~ c Netta Wilson 1996 ~
luv and many hugs, Karen
proud aunt of Christopher