A year ago, or even 6 months ago, I didn't think I would ever smile again, but Penny's question, and some of the answers here, made me consciously realize that even though he isn't here physically, Micheal can still make me smile.
Thinking about him doing his comic version of "bus driver, bus driver, open the door!" definately makes me smile...
...and hearing a song on the radio that I know Micheal really liked usually makes me smile too - thinking about him dancing around the kitchen to it. Sometimes a song would come on and he would run over and grab me and make me waltz or two-step around the house with him. We would laugh so hard!
Sometimes those memories will still make me cry, but mostly makes me smile now.
Love and hugs,
Johanna, Micheal's mom