Hi Nina,
I am glad you have found your way here. We have never spoken, but Jeffrey talked highly of you. I remember Valentine's Day two years ago, Jeff bought you a card, I went with him to pick it out, he wanted to thank you for letting him stay at your house, for making him apart of your family.
My son loved your daughter with all his heart, and it has brokern mine beyond repair to have lost him.
He was , is my life, he made each and everyday brighter , I miss him with every breath I take, he was my reason for living, he made my other two children who they are today, Jeffrey was My man in my life and the few times Tanya did come to our home, she was a sweet, polite and a pretty Girl, no wonder Jeff fell in love.
Nina the second year is the hardest, at least it has been for me. I see his friends sometimes and think he would be in his second year of University and Tanya would be graduating Vanier.
We both lost two GREAT kids, life will never ever be the same, but here in this forum you will find parents that sit right where we are, that have the same pain the same loniness, the same feelings and in this you will know you are never alone.
I am never far Nina, as we both know Our children, lived, loved and died together, unfortunaley we share a bond uncommon here on this board.
The two daughters who remain will always remind you of Tanya, they will always say what if - but the guilt that eats us up is not healthy, like I have always said, I should not have let him go.
But I did, I had to, he loved her and wanted to go to your house that day
I did and I have to live with that
You take Care Nina, Tanya is never far from my mind nor my heart
Always Jeffrey's Mom