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Child Loss / Re: It's been a long time
« on: November 03, 2016, 01:46:18 PM »
Thank you all for the kind words.

Child Loss / It's been a long time
« on: September 27, 2016, 02:41:51 PM »
I first came to this board 13 years ago. My daughter, Vikki had just passed away. I didn't know where to turn to find help with the pain. I had friends and family, but something was missing. I had to be around people who truly understood. I was desperate. I found a lot of help here. The time passes slowly. It seems some days like it was yesterday. There are still days I think I need to call and tell her something. Those days really are hard. I still have good days and bad days. They aren't as bad now but I still cry. I cry when I hear myself talking about her. I cry when I hear of someone else losing their child, I know that pain so well and want more than anything to make it go away for them. There is no closure. Time does not heal all wounds. But we learn to live with them. Not sure anyone is here that even remembers me. My love to you all - Carol

Child Loss / Mr. Top Hat & Katie
« on: July 02, 2011, 11:45:09 AM »
You know I'm thinking about you and Adam. Always in my heart.
I remember when we both first came here. Does it still seem like yesterday
to you? I can't believe the time that has passed.
You know how special you are to me and how special Adam is - Mr. Top hat, smiling.
Today my husband and I were driving home from shopping, my mind wandering as I looked out the window, saw a bus turning into a camp ground with some cheerleaders in the bus, bunch of kids - I let out a chuckle.
Hubby ask what was so funny, I said "oh...just thinking about a story Katie told me
about Adam ." I thought to myself then - wow, the kid is still saying * Hi * at least, that's how I'm going to see it and hope you do too. 
Love to you and your wonderful family

Child Loss / Re: Vikki's angel Date ((((( Carol )))))
« on: July 02, 2011, 11:38:04 AM »
Thank you all so much. I haven't been here in awhile...but, I check back now and then.
I was surprised to see these posts. Good to know some of you remember me and
still think of us. LOVE TO YOU ALL!!

Child Loss / Re: Happy Heavenly Birthday, Vikki! ((((( Carol )))))
« on: November 22, 2010, 10:11:54 PM »
Happy Birthday Vikki, Thinking of you Carol.  hugs  Lavonne

Thank you Lavonne. This means a lot to me.
I had a wonderful email from Katie on Vikki's birthday. It makes me happy to know
that there are a few that still remember me and my daughter, even tho' I'm not here much at all anymore. Never-the-less / I think of many of you often. ...meaning, the ones that were here when I was posting ..and anyone that answers my posts. Your kindness is truly, truly appreciated.

Child Loss / Re: Happy Heavenly Birthday, Vikki! ((((( Carol )))))
« on: November 22, 2010, 09:59:28 PM »
Thank you Terry.
I don't post much anymore but I do read now and then.
Thank you for remembering.
I think about her every day of my life. Off and on...ALL day long.
Miss her still...too much.

Child Loss / Re: You Never Know When the Arrow of Pain Will Hit
« on: July 05, 2010, 08:26:27 AM »
What a perfect way to describe it. " The Arrow of Pain*

Child Loss / Re: Carol
« on: July 05, 2010, 08:24:52 AM »
Thank you Deb.
It's been awhile.
I posted a couple of times this year but I don't get to the board as much
as I used to. That doesn't mean that all the people I met here aren't in
my thoughts. I can still see the pictures of every child , in my mind, from
7 years ago. It's amazing that it's been 7 years ( June 16th)
So many things have happened, especially with Vikki's twin boys. They are 8 yrs old now.
Time has helped with the pain...but there is never a day that goes by that
I don't ask  WHY?!
The pain isn't as pounding but...oh, it's here. I know you all know what I mean.
Thanks for the hello.

Child Loss / Thinking of Katie and Adam
« on: July 03, 2010, 07:14:08 PM »
Katie, It's been a long time since I've talked to you. I've posted maybe twice the past year so I am a bit out of touch but I want you to know that
I will always remember Adam...Mr. Tophat is in my heart for keeps.
I know it's been 7 years now . Know that I am thinking of you , Adam and
your family (((((((((( Adam N' Katie))))))))))))))))

Child Loss / Re: Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Take it
« on: May 06, 2007, 11:40:45 AM »
I don't post much anymore. I'm sorry that you are in such pain.
I don't post because I just don't know what to say anymore. I still listen
to my daughter in my heart, I try so hard...but, I just miss her so much.
I have my grandkids and my other daughter depending on me to be there, to love them and I do...I love them so much but for some reason this pain is
such that it just keeps kicking me in my gut. My daughter left this world in June also. June 16th, 2003. I thought I would be at a different place in my grief too. I guess I am. The shock has worn off and I feel like I am just acting like I am alive and happy. I hate to say this but I don't think I will ever be truly happy again. I think about you and Donny a lot. I can honestly say I feel your pain, meaning that when I read your words, I can feel how
hurt you are. I wish there was something we could do to stop this pain we feel. I think I keep waiting for something to wake me up.
Please know that your Donny is thought about by many. We all keep our children's spirit alive, in our hearts.

Child Loss / Re: Time for change
« on: December 11, 2006, 07:56:16 PM »
Deb, I missed whatever was said that hurt your feelings. I know sometimes people don't mean things the way they come across to some of us, sometimes. Whatever happened, know that you are loved by everyone here. You have always been there for me.
I don't post as much as I use to, but I do read now and then..and you have always said things that have helped me in my
darkest hours. I'm trying to be happy for the family this time of year and it's just so hard. I keep thinking there will come a time when I wont have to act...but so far, that time hasn't arrived. I miss my daughter so. ...more everyday.
Please don't stay gone long. Please!

Child Loss / Re: *Photos of our children *SUBJECT SPECIFIC THREAD*
« on: December 10, 2006, 01:56:32 PM »
Vikki Rae Young

Child Loss / Re: trying pic
« on: December 10, 2006, 01:50:22 PM »
I don't think I know how to do this either.

Child Loss / Re: My Handsome son, John
« on: December 08, 2006, 11:57:38 AM »
What a wonderful picture of John. I love it.

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