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Child Loss / Re: Despair
« on: April 22, 2008, 07:01:06 PM »
Hi Tammy:
Welcome, and I am so glad you are here but so sad for the reason.
My situation is similar to yours but my son was killed at 24 in a car accident and my mother was going through breast cancer before he died and continued with her treatments 2 months after his death. I believe that we are still trying to come to terms with our grieving and sometimes we feel that we are walking around in a fog especially when all these things are coming at us at once. Grief is so different for each individual but we all have the same similarities in our stories. I went to grief counseling when I lost my Jason and there is actually a cycle that we all go through. We can't escape it we must all go through it. Sometimes our marriages can be rocky also. We all go through this cycle in our own time and we may not be going through the same things at the same times, does that make sense?
Our lives are so forever changed and different and for the most part we all have more sad days than glad days.
I hope I have helped a little, I don't know much but what I do know is that I am here for you and you will be in my prayers and thoughts!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
Welcome, and I am so glad you are here but so sad for the reason.
My situation is similar to yours but my son was killed at 24 in a car accident and my mother was going through breast cancer before he died and continued with her treatments 2 months after his death. I believe that we are still trying to come to terms with our grieving and sometimes we feel that we are walking around in a fog especially when all these things are coming at us at once. Grief is so different for each individual but we all have the same similarities in our stories. I went to grief counseling when I lost my Jason and there is actually a cycle that we all go through. We can't escape it we must all go through it. Sometimes our marriages can be rocky also. We all go through this cycle in our own time and we may not be going through the same things at the same times, does that make sense?
Our lives are so forever changed and different and for the most part we all have more sad days than glad days.
I hope I have helped a little, I don't know much but what I do know is that I am here for you and you will be in my prayers and thoughts!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: For Taylor on your birthday
« on: April 22, 2008, 06:52:12 PM »
Brenda:
I will be thinking of you and your precious son Taylor. May you find some peace and feel his presence with you. I know you loved him very much and still miss him so very much!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
I will be thinking of you and your precious son Taylor. May you find some peace and feel his presence with you. I know you loved him very much and still miss him so very much!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Jason's birthday coming up
« on: April 22, 2008, 06:48:58 PM »
I wanted to reply to each and every one of you precious people but I honestly just don't have the strength! I want you all to know how much I appreciate your kind words and words of encouragement. I know that you all understand exactly how I feel and I know how much all of you miss your wonderful children. I pray for each and everyone of you that you also will find strength and feel that subtle slight brush of their breath across your face and feel their presence near you during those times that seem impossible to survive. I know we are survivors in our own way otherwise we would have died right along with our children. There's a reason for us to go on and a purpose sometimes it's just hard to find out what it could possibly be. You have all helped me more than I could ever express not only today but over the last 4 birthdays he has missed. There have been times when I just knew I couldn't go on and I would come to this wonderful haven here and find that strength to go on another day, another moment and take another breath.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Jason's birthday coming up
« on: April 20, 2008, 08:03:10 PM »
Hi everyone, it's me, and it's very late for me to be posting and it's been awhile. I have just been feeling so depressed, hopeless and helpless over the last few weeks. My Jason's earthly birthday is coming up on the 29th of April, he would have been 28, I can't believe he has lost 4 birthdays. We always plan something special for him but each year it just seems to get harder and harder. This week has really gotten to me I've been seeing all the kids going to prom, weddings coming up of his friends, my daughter's getting ready to have another son and I am just this ball of raw emotion. I can't seem to bring myself out of this. Normally, it comes and goes, it's with me always but I'm having a hard time controlling my emotions over the last few weeks. How much sadder this world is without my precious boy, I miss your beautiful eyes, your sweet smile and the way you would look at me and say things like, "How is that mom?" when asking me about a situation. The way you would come in the door after working so hard and say "Hey" or how I would tell you everyday "Have a good day!" The way you wore your hat on backwards or would ask me everyday do I look like I'm getting bigger, mom, he lifted weights and I would kind of chuckle because you just asked me that the day before, and you would say no really mom do I look like I'm getting bigger and I'd have to say yes because I knew you were really serious! The day can't come soon enough for me until I'm with you for all eternity, I can't wait to hold you in my arms and kiss your precious face and hold it in my hands again. I hope you know how very much you are missed and loved with every breath I breathe. The pain is just so unbearable!
I love you my precious boy!
Thank all of you for letting me carry on about my Jason!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time, looks like it's only breathing for me for awhile!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
I love you my precious boy!
Thank all of you for letting me carry on about my Jason!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time, looks like it's only breathing for me for awhile!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: New Grandbaby
« on: March 18, 2008, 04:49:37 PM »
How precious are those little grandbabies. I have one now and another one on the way in May. They are such blessings, sometimes I think they are God's way of giving us little gifts. My grandson reminds me so much of my Jason he has that little twinkle in his eyes and so mischevious!!
What we wouldn't give to just see, hug or hear their voices just one more time!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
What we wouldn't give to just see, hug or hear their voices just one more time!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Dealing with grief and other things, feeling overwhelmed
« on: March 18, 2008, 04:45:38 PM »
Hi Mona:
Wow, you are dealing with quite a bit. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!! My mother is a breast cancer survivor. You may have to dig a little deeper for that inner strength we all have. When we lost our babies I know we all felt as if that we were not going to be able to survive. Yes our lives are so different now and forever changed. I will keep you in my prayers, please post the results if you feel comfortable, keep us posted!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
Wow, you are dealing with quite a bit. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!! My mother is a breast cancer survivor. You may have to dig a little deeper for that inner strength we all have. When we lost our babies I know we all felt as if that we were not going to be able to survive. Yes our lives are so different now and forever changed. I will keep you in my prayers, please post the results if you feel comfortable, keep us posted!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: It has been too long
« on: March 17, 2008, 08:39:46 PM »
Hi Vicki
I too have been away for awhile. Oh, how I can relate to so many things you said. Isn't it wonderful how we can go away and come back and feel as if we never left. That's what I find so wonderful about this board. Oh, if we could all somehow make it different, how our lives have been forever changed and I find my life is continuously changing even with my other children we are now seeing just how tragic the loss is and just how much it has affected our two other children. Sometimes our lives are in such turmoil and such craziness we are all dealing with his death in our own way.
Good to hear from you and please know my prayers and thoughts are with you!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
I too have been away for awhile. Oh, how I can relate to so many things you said. Isn't it wonderful how we can go away and come back and feel as if we never left. That's what I find so wonderful about this board. Oh, if we could all somehow make it different, how our lives have been forever changed and I find my life is continuously changing even with my other children we are now seeing just how tragic the loss is and just how much it has affected our two other children. Sometimes our lives are in such turmoil and such craziness we are all dealing with his death in our own way.
Good to hear from you and please know my prayers and thoughts are with you!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: You are all in my prayers and thoughts daily
« on: March 17, 2008, 08:31:12 PM »
Hi Nancy
This is such a lonely and hard journey at times but this board was and still is at times such a source of strength for me and my journey. I'm so glad you are here there are so many caring and encouraging people here to help you. If there is one thing I have learned after losing my Jason is coming to the realization that sometimes there are things you just can't do. If you are able to have a dinner that's great but if you realize you just can't deal with it you have to give yourself that acceptance also. Everyone is so different in the way they grieve but unfortunatly we all know each others pain all to well. I hope you find strength and I am so sorry about your Patrick.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
Hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
This is such a lonely and hard journey at times but this board was and still is at times such a source of strength for me and my journey. I'm so glad you are here there are so many caring and encouraging people here to help you. If there is one thing I have learned after losing my Jason is coming to the realization that sometimes there are things you just can't do. If you are able to have a dinner that's great but if you realize you just can't deal with it you have to give yourself that acceptance also. Everyone is so different in the way they grieve but unfortunatly we all know each others pain all to well. I hope you find strength and I am so sorry about your Patrick.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
Hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: They Think I'm Fine and Over It... Poem to share
« on: March 07, 2008, 08:21:12 AM »
Wow, that is so true!!! We put on our masks and go about our business. Sometimes you want to scream doesn't anyone realize I've lost my child, what's to laugh about all you can do is cry. They are forever in our thoughts, hearts can't seem to escape this grief not for one moment!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Hope For The Day-Are you tired of feeling tired?
« on: March 07, 2008, 08:17:22 AM »
I haven't been on the board for some time now but today for some reason felt I should. Now I know why, to read your words of inspiration to get through another day of this lonely journey. My Jason has not been with us for 3 years now and everyday still seems to be a struggle. Thank you for reminding us where our strength comes from.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Introducing Our Precious Children
« on: March 07, 2008, 06:49:33 AM »
It's been quite a while since I have been on the board but for some reason feeling like I needed to today.
How do we put into words and introduce our precious children but I will attempt to once again.
My Jason was 24 years old and was carried to Heaven on Dec 14, 2004. He was killed in a car accident only one mile from our house. We heard the sirens but never dreamed they were for our baby.
Jason was in school to become an electrician, he was only 5 months shy of graduating and becoming a journeyman. He was so proud of his accomplishments and I was very proud of him! He had so many hobbies, he loved snowboarding, his truck, his family and music. He was and still is the love of my life! There's just something about that connection between moms and their sons. I don't know if it was because he was my first child or my only son but their was a special bond between us. He was very handsome, of course, standing at 6'2 blonde hair, beautiful eyes and a smile that would light up any room when he walked in. He was a very kind and thoughtful person and is so very deeply missed by so many people that he touched with his life. There are always so many things that trigger that pain when I see a young man with their hat on backwards, cardharts they just take me right back to that very moment when I learned my Jason was not with me in his physical body anymore. The one thing I miss the most is his voice, his big hugs and I know this sounds crazy but his toes used to crack when he walked LOL. As time goes by things to become bareable but your life is so much forever changed and different. Their are some good times and laughter but their always seems to be this cloud over you that is always there. I do believe I will see him again and that is the only things that keeps me going on everyday. I want him to be proud of me and I must try to find my purpose to fulfill on this earth so I can be with him that much sooner! Until I am with him again he remains forever in my heart!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
How do we put into words and introduce our precious children but I will attempt to once again.
My Jason was 24 years old and was carried to Heaven on Dec 14, 2004. He was killed in a car accident only one mile from our house. We heard the sirens but never dreamed they were for our baby.
Jason was in school to become an electrician, he was only 5 months shy of graduating and becoming a journeyman. He was so proud of his accomplishments and I was very proud of him! He had so many hobbies, he loved snowboarding, his truck, his family and music. He was and still is the love of my life! There's just something about that connection between moms and their sons. I don't know if it was because he was my first child or my only son but their was a special bond between us. He was very handsome, of course, standing at 6'2 blonde hair, beautiful eyes and a smile that would light up any room when he walked in. He was a very kind and thoughtful person and is so very deeply missed by so many people that he touched with his life. There are always so many things that trigger that pain when I see a young man with their hat on backwards, cardharts they just take me right back to that very moment when I learned my Jason was not with me in his physical body anymore. The one thing I miss the most is his voice, his big hugs and I know this sounds crazy but his toes used to crack when he walked LOL. As time goes by things to become bareable but your life is so much forever changed and different. Their are some good times and laughter but their always seems to be this cloud over you that is always there. I do believe I will see him again and that is the only things that keeps me going on everyday. I want him to be proud of me and I must try to find my purpose to fulfill on this earth so I can be with him that much sooner! Until I am with him again he remains forever in my heart!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / You are all in my prayers and thoughts daily
« on: March 07, 2008, 06:33:52 AM »
Hello all!
I haven't been on the board for quite some time but I just wanted to let you all know I still remember you in my daily prayers and thoughts. My Jason has been in Heaven now for 4 Christmas and each year gets harder than the year before. I know your pain and pray for you daily.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
I haven't been on the board for quite some time but I just wanted to let you all know I still remember you in my daily prayers and thoughts. My Jason has been in Heaven now for 4 Christmas and each year gets harder than the year before. I know your pain and pray for you daily.
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Can't find a reason...
« on: March 21, 2007, 03:44:33 PM »
I am so sorry for your pain! Only those of us who are on this lonely journey understand! It has been 2 years and 3 mos since losing my Jason in a tragic car accident. Katie is so right when she says you can only take it a moment, a breathe at a time. Our lives have been forever changed and are so different. When I'm feeling really down I try to think about how blessed I was to have my Jason and to know the kind of love that some never experience in their lifetimes. I had him for 24 short years but oh how awesome those years where!! They are forever missed and forever loved! This is a very good site for words of encouragement and their are some very caring and loving people here who will be there anytime of day. Please call upon us if you are in need! Saying Brynnes name our loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will remember you in my prayers!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
I will remember you in my prayers!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: How will I ever know I was a good Mom
« on: March 16, 2007, 06:12:49 PM »
Hi there!
Please talk to us we are here for you and would love to hear whatever you want to share!
Keeping you in my prayers!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
Please talk to us we are here for you and would love to hear whatever you want to share!
Keeping you in my prayers!!
One day, one moment, one breathe at a time!!
hugs and love
Donna (Jason's mom)
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Child Loss / Re: Book forum
« on: March 16, 2007, 06:07:40 PM »
Sounds like a WONDERFUL idea. I know I am always open to any suggestions that might help me on this journey!!
Donna (Jason's mom)
Donna (Jason's mom)